The brown-skinned girl upstairs has a heavy footfall.
I hear her bang-bang-bang-bang-bang across the ceiling.
Always a count of five, she scampers with a rhythm that is musical.
I’m annoyed.
But in everything, I look for purpose and reason.
So, I am screwing up my courage,
to decipher her meaning in
my life.
She is the little girl in me who got stepped on.
I walk through life with unhealed bruises.
I attract people who bruise me more,
perhaps because I hide the
ones already there.
She has me trapped in a symphony of running feet.
I’ve been running all my life.
I run to find my home, a place I can never seem to find.
I’m not one to report noisy neighbors.
But I’m so easily annoyed by things I can’t control,
which is everything, of
course. Confounding.
On a path to nowhere, she runs. I run.
I ran here to escape the love that binds me.
Distance, it would seem, is not the fix I keep aiming for.
She is wild and free. How I wish I could be wild and free.
Maybe I’m jealous? Because I can’t start over.
I can’t remember his face, the one who hurt me so.
Let my hair fly in the wind.
Let my dress flap around me.
I’m not running because I’m scared.
I’m running because I’m free.